October 25

Master Key Experience – Week 4

Do You Always Keep Your Promises?

I wanted to quit. I was already a week behind (5 days anyway) in trying to finish the scheduled work for that week in the MKE class. I didn’t see how this was going to get any easier anytime soon. This seemed too hard, and too much for me right now. What had been excitement in the beginning had now become drudgery. (I see now that the drudgery is my “old blueprint”; demons/minions coming after me, wanting me to justify the action.)

I wrote an email to the facilitator of the class announcing my intentions, respectfully. Her reply was to remind me what I had been warned about. She was going to hold me accountable.

The Value of Accountability

She wrote:
“You are teaching your subconscious something here, what do you want to teach it about you?
Will the progression of your life and the lives of those you love happen if you quit now? Will anything change?
I’m just covering myself here, I have to let you know that this is textbook ‘refusal of the call’ to the hero’s journey. Many, many people do it and continue their lives of quiet desperation, as Thoreau teaches us.
Refusal to become the hero of your own life, in the lives of the people who love you.” Continue reading

September 17

First Journey From Here

Where I Have Been

I am one of those who has been living a life of quiet desperation (Thoreau?). From my mid-twenties on till now, I’ve felt that there should be more for me in life than just what I have had.  To find a cure for that nagging itch, when the mood hit me, I would bounce from one self-help book or program to another, usually giving up without giving 100% or not putting in the work long enough to see (my) expected results. My first journey from here will be to cure that itch once and for all.

Looking back now at the time when I was exploring these methods, and trying to put into practice the methods they prescribed, I’ve been asking hard questions. Questions like: Is our success or failure predetermined? I want to find out why the people who say “yes” to this do so, and how they justify it. Some of the philosophies are darn right spooky. Where do they come from? Are the things I was taught to believe really all that different from what these “far-fetched” ideas profess? Continue reading