September 17

First Journey From Here

Where I Have Been

I am one of those who has been living a life of quiet desperation (Thoreau?). From my mid-twenties on till now, I’ve felt that there should be more for me in life than just what I have had.  To find a cure for that nagging itch, when the mood hit me, I would bounce from one self-help book or program to another, usually giving up without giving 100% or not putting in the work long enough to see (my) expected results. My first journey from here will be to cure that itch once and for all.

Looking back now at the time when I was exploring these methods, and trying to put into practice the methods they prescribed, I’ve been asking hard questions. Questions like: Is our success or failure predetermined? I want to find out why the people who say “yes” to this do so, and how they justify it. Some of the philosophies are darn right spooky. Where do they come from? Are the things I was taught to believe really all that different from what these “far-fetched” ideas profess? Continue reading