Master Key Experience – Week 10
Refusing To Answer The Call – Still/Again
I still say to myself (everyday it seems) that I don’t like the life that I have and that I’m going to do something about it. The life that I am living has not been forced upon me. The circumstances in some people’s lives are forced upon them, but that is not the type I’m addressing here. For the most part, I’ve either chosen this life or have settled for it. Now I’m complaining about the choices that I made, and I’m refusing to let go of the life I created for myself. It’s actually a chemical addiction (medically proven).
Something or someone somewhere issued a “call” to me, the call to be a hero. The hero in my own story would be me, by changing my life. I first heard this call long ago but I wasn’t really listening. I began to hear it more often just in the last 8 years or so, and now I’ve actually been listening intentionally. Yes, I heard that call, but to be a hero, I’d have to answer it. Everyone knows that change is hard for most people. I am certainly no different. However, I’ve been given the tools I need to break this addiction, this bad habit.
Knowledge doesn’t apply itself. I have to apply it, and I have, but not 100% of the time. I started well, but haven’t stuck with it. So why am I not applying them on a consistent basis? It requires hard mental labor. And many times, when the going gets tough, we get lazy, yes? And remember, I said I’m no different. But there’s more to it than just sloth. There is also fear. What if I succeeded in breaking the bad habits, became the person I truly want to be, and changed my life? This “future me” would be a different me, and that realization is kind of scary.
Whatcha Gonna Do?
So am I going to continue to refuse to answer this call to be the hero of my own life? To refuse to let go of this life that I have and say that I don’t want? That is exactly what I have been doing (and some of you have as well, haven’t you?). No, I am not. I’m going to get off the merry-go-round and answer the call. What about you?
I am Mark Van Horn, reminding myself, I always keep my promises.
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